Like you, I get interesting items in my search engine terms. You know, the little phrases that people type into Google, Yahoo, or who-knows-where that bring them to your blog. Some of these are intriguing– “cleaning house wearing only black stockings,” “long toenails school,” “my neighbor is hypnotizing me.” Many of these leave me scratching my head, wondering, “How did typing THAT get them HERE?” But one search term keeps coming up over and over, several times a week, and it’s really making me sad.
“suicide no girlfriend”
I’m trying to imagine the person typing this. Are they young or old? Male or female? Are they writing it about themselves, or a recently departed friend? Maybe it’s someone who’s trying to prevent his girlfriend’s death. In my mind, it’s a young guy, maybe late teens, early twenties. He’s dejected, discouraged and depressed because of a lack of female companionship, save for his mother. If what I’m surmising is true (and even if its not), I want to send a message to him. That message is: DON’T DO IT!
You can’t take it back, you’ll miss a lot of wonderful stuff, life is good, get some hobbies, call a friend, there are people who care about you, life has its peaks and valleys, there’s a great big beautiful world out there, find your happiness within, time heals all wounds.
My father committed suicide many years ago. I miss him every day– it’s left a gaping hole in my heart, and the hearts of many others. But what I wish I could have convinced him of is that things change. If he’d hung around, his existence today would be far different than it was back then. I’m sure of it. Our lives are ever-moving and ever-evolving. New people come and go, new experiences shape us, new ideas present themselves. It can be very tragic. It can also be very beautiful. Stick around and see how the movie ends.